It's the First Day of Ramadan:
Welcome to Ramadan 2004. Yet again we try to make sense of life and all the shit we've done. I, personally feel a bit melancholic this Ramadan. I feel I've changed for the worst in so many aspects. I compare myself with how I was last Ramadan:
-Last Ramadan I hadn't started drinking
-Last Ramadan I hadn't had unprotected intercourse
It's just so different now, I am different- But is it a difference for the worst or changing into someone better.
I watch all these religiou programmes on TV and I look at all these people in the surau last night, it just occured to me, I don't belong in that scene. Eventhough I try to pray during Ramadan, but late on I'd be thinking filthy thought, and later actually doing them.
I must admit, my previous Ramadan was not-so-clean. I had my fair share of mischief.
I just hope this year I won't go too overboard.
Huns tells me I'm just incorrigible- I know! But let's try to slip in some good deeds in between your nightime misadventures.
Welcome to Ramadan 2004. Yet again we try to make sense of life and all the shit we've done. I, personally feel a bit melancholic this Ramadan. I feel I've changed for the worst in so many aspects. I compare myself with how I was last Ramadan:
-Last Ramadan I hadn't started drinking
-Last Ramadan I hadn't had unprotected intercourse
It's just so different now, I am different- But is it a difference for the worst or changing into someone better.
I watch all these religiou programmes on TV and I look at all these people in the surau last night, it just occured to me, I don't belong in that scene. Eventhough I try to pray during Ramadan, but late on I'd be thinking filthy thought, and later actually doing them.
I must admit, my previous Ramadan was not-so-clean. I had my fair share of mischief.
I just hope this year I won't go too overboard.
Huns tells me I'm just incorrigible- I know! But let's try to slip in some good deeds in between your nightime misadventures.
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